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Friday, February 18, 2011

8:20 AM

realise that it been so long since i update: found in my hard drive is a story that i have written in secondary or poly but have not post it..... after reading it, did revoke my memory and that i actually can be an author one day.

This is a love story revolving the story of two people who love each other but are not fated to be together. This is life! Welcome to life! Seldom or never we see any couples who are able to live happily ever after. Hence, we have fairy tales. They serve as a form of condolence for all of us, earthlings who still hope that one day, perhaps one day, fairy tales do come true.

There is nothing more exhilarating than a beautiful sunset when the clouds bloom with a suffused saffron, Annabel thought. Smiling to herself, she looked dreamily at Collin, her best friend’s brother. He was only sixteen years old, a year older than her, but he already possessed the charm and body of a real man. Her love for him was a secret, known to no one, especially now that he had a girlfriend whom he adored very much.

Belle, short for Annabel, is definitely not the most fortunate girl. She is abandoned.

Wide awake now, she remembered that she was alone. Her mum did not keep her word. She did not come back. The poor child turned from the window and faced the staring cupboards. She found a piece of bread, the crust is hard, and she slowly munched it. As she aimlessly strolled round the room, her little foot got caught in the playthings which had once occupied her. She tumbled over and fell flatly onto the floor. The piece of bread bounded out of her hand and flew into a pair of pink shoes. Slowly, she raised herself and stared at the scraped knee. Only the sound of a rolling spool of thread was heard. She watched small drops of blood ooze out of the scratched area, and suddenly she bagan to sob. Heart-rending moans that rose from the very depths of the thin little chest. The cries shuddered through the misty-cold air and shook from wall to wall. She sobbed for gentle arms around her, for the sweetness and warmth of a mother.

Shaking her head, Belle jolted herself out of that painful memory. She reminded herself, again, that she should forget about the past and move on.

“Hey! Look at us!” shouted Lola. She was happily splashing water with her brother and his girlfriend. Laughter filled the air. Belle ran towards them and joined in the fun. After that, they proceeded to swim. At the end of the day, all of them were exhausted and sun burnt. Nonetheless, it was a great day for Belle who had not enjoyed herself so much.

“Collin, let’s go home before mum scolds. It’s getting late.” Lola said to her brother.

Collin stole a glance at his girlfriend, Sherry, and then shook his head. “ No, you two go first. We want to enjoy the night breeze. Tell mum I will be home by eleven.”

Lola rolled her eyes and turned to Belle. “These two can never get enough of each other! Oh well, let’s leave them here. I wanna go home and sleep!”

Belle, though reluctant to leave Collin out of her sight, agreed and even teased the lovebirds.

Upon reaching home, Belle wondered what Collin and Sherry were doing. It broke her heart knowing that they would be in each other’s arms. Tears stremed down her cheeks and she brushed them away roughly, hating herself for being such a crybaby. The clock was ticking away and Belle’s eyelids became too heavy for her.

The dark sky gave way to the gleaming sun. Morning arrived. The birds chirped and all was serene. The silence was broken when all of a sudden, Lola charged through the front door causing Belle to gasp in alarm. She scarcely recognized her. Her shorn black hair glistened with sweat and her face was stamped with colour, like she’d run the whole way. As Lola jerked to a halt before her, she saw that the tips of her ears were red, too, a sure sign of something bad.

Goosepimples skittered up her arms like tiny biting insects. She hardly dared to breathe. She hadn’t the slightest idea what might have brought Lola racing to her house early in the morning. She clapped a hand to her heart to still its anxious thumping, asking in a soft, trembulous voice, “Lola, my God, what is it?”

She opened her mouth, then closed it again. Her shoulders were slouched and she looked horrible. After a moment, she straightened and took a step forward. “Hold me, Belle… I feel I’m going to faint…” Belle grabbed her hands and held them tight. “What is it, Lola? What happened?”

“Collin’s dead.” She spoke slowly and in disbelief.

Her words melted on impact like the snowflakes landing with a soft, sizzling sound. Dropping her gaze, Belle suddenly found it hard to draw any breath. Her chest was hitching like an engine that wouldn’t start. “No… not Collin. There must have been some mistake.”

But Lola was shaking her head. “The police called saying that they found his body on the beach. They said there was no sign of Sherry. I haven’t said a word to dad and mum… they will die hearing this… Belle, what should I do? What?” tears, by this time was covering her whole face.

Belle’s mouth moved of its own volition, shaping itself about the unspeakable. “How?” she breathed in a cracked whisper.

“I don’t know…” Lola said with much difficulty amongst her sobs.

Though Belle felt that she was going to die any minute, she knew that Lola was equally devastated like her. And something needed to be done. She could not simply leave Lola alone to face this.

Belle thought for a moment, raking a hand over her head, front to back, as she’d been in the habit of doing since her hair was long. Her face was as ghostly white as the naked lightbulb that dangled overhead. Then, as if coming to a decision, she abruptly wrenched open the door. “There’s only one thing to do. You’ll have to inform your parents. I’ll go with you,” she said.

Lola followed her outside. Her panic receded a bit. She told herself, Belle will be with me when I break this news. They’ll be fine… they’ll…

Belle helped Lola into the cab, then trotted around to the other side.

“Uncle, Bedok.”

Five years passed. Lola’s family were migrated for that long already. Too depressed to face the death of the only son in their family, Lola’s parents decided that they should leave this place of misery to Germany. Belle could vivdly remember Collin’s funeral.

Cries were heard everywhere. Darkness filled the entire place. There was no smiles, no light, no colour. Everyone were solemn and sorrowful. Belle’s heart ached so much so that she felt she could never love anyone again. First was her mother who left her defenceless, facing the world alone. Now is Collin, the only guy she’d ever loved.

Till now, Belle felt the same way. The past seemed to be haunting her now and then. Fortunately for her, Lola had been her companion and her soulmate during all these times. Lola did not emigrate with her parents as she wanted to continue her studies in Singapore and was taken care of by her god brother.

“Come on! You’re my best friend! You got to come to the party with me.” pleaded Lola. For days before the party, she had been begging and convincing Belle to attend a friend’s birthday party at a pub.

Belle, one who had a natural disinclination towards parties, crowds and loud music, grudgingly agreed. She did not want to see Lola’s disappointed face again.

The party venue was, as expected, blazing with loud music. Everyone was wild as if they were on drugs. The atmosphere was lively and happy.

Not tt bad right haha will find time to finish it now really no time.

Wishlist

Thursday, January 21, 2010

7:59 PM

what i wan to get for my birthday:

Sleeping pads to shade from the sunlight
eye mask or eye cream for my dark circle
Asus netbook, is tt the spelling?
Burberry / Coach handbag
thumbdrive
portable harddisk for movie and pic
bodywork exhibition, who wan to go with me??
ice skiing, who wan to go with me??
necklace for everyday wear, something simple

UOB bank-bad service

Saturday, January 09, 2010

6:49 AM

before i forgot i muz blog abt this. in 2009 i have apply for uob campus card cos it come wit a free cheque bk which i requite to pay for my jap class. it was no problem at all and i was happy with it. but during the last cheque tt i give out there was a huge problem. i was careless and send out a cheque wit wrong date. and the cheque got bound not becos it ogt insufficent money in it. so the bank deduct 40 buck from me without my knowledge and consent. the sch then try to recheck in my cheque and as the bank already deduct the $4o thus i have insufficent amt in the bank. i only a student with limited amt to spare thus i felt tt the UOB bank service is really suck. in other bank from my knowledge they will call us if there are any bound cheque. but the uob did not call us and deduct from my acct. if i did not check back on my bank statement they will keep on deducting my money. in the end i got to pay up to $80 penalty. i was very upset and went to the tpy branch to waive off. the auntie there was very rude, she give off a attitude tt she could not bothered wit my plea. this make me more angry than ever. lucky the other lady with better attitude come to us and explain thing to me and allow me to waive off $40. however, wat i felt is tt since UOB have a call centre y can't they just call us abt the post it cheque in the first place. in this way i can ask the sch to take back my cheque and there will be no 2nd bounce at all. and the additional $40 will not incurred at all.

Resolution 2010

6:02 AM

After so long break from writing, now so first at year 2010 le, thinking back 2009 was like yesterday.

now for my new year resolution:

1. get my driving lesson

2. save at least $100 per month beside my insurance

3. do well in my studies and get at least a distinction

4. travel to at least one different country

5. pay all my bills myself

6. give my mom at least $50 allowance

7. buy myself a bike-Done!!

8. buy myself a netbook.

so far i have accomplished no.7. the rest still still ongoing.

update of how my life change since 2009: i have graduate from nanyang polytechnic and apply a degree course in sim. the sch fee is ex but i feel tt i could do better for my result both in poly and uni. in the yr 2009 i have worked for diff companies and a lot of f & b. and roughly know which job i will NOT do for my rest of career life such as telemarketing and sales.

last yr was really a difficult yr for me cos i have to do a lot of decision making of wat i wan in my life, in the end i escape the problem of thinking and apply uni. but i know tt i hope i can work in travelling related job cos i totally into travelling. i learn a new language jap and make some new friends. sadly some of the friends are a bit lunatic. well i still did not manage to get myself a bf. i felt tt i a loyal friend and willing to help my friend throughout but let hope tt friend should not take adv of me. Oh and i turned into a adult now but i felt that my charm and ability to chat is totally down. i tend to keep to myself more and more. and feel very alone sometimes. i felt tt i losing touch of some of my very gd friend, and they drifting away from me. and it really make me sad. but i know i got to toughen up as i got noone to rely on.

currently

Monday, September 28, 2009

11:38 PM

tired of clubby life...........tt time go clubby wit friends totally hate the hangover feeling the next days.......now addicted to facebook and manga haha......studying later with jo so now very very bored, did make new friends at sch but not really very close with them as my sec sch friend.....poly friends also cos now most of them is in army and working .......

blog

11:21 PM

it been so long since i blog.....really sorry for my reader. now i am at the stage of passing new life...now i am a university student at SIM........at first was in a dilemmas whether to study or work but after i do some temp job i found out tt i don wan to start work yet especially in a bad economic where good job is hard to find. then another dilemmas is to study which course??? finally i took bis mgt......i work part time job at watami.....cos it is a new rest. at lot of training was given....but when it operated.....there was too many guests and we always deal wit shortage of staff and i even don really wan to work tt much but need money as i stop asking for allowance from my mom......i make a lot of tong ga gon gu de friend so it was manageable, then got transfer to clark quay ......to tell you the truth i perfer clark quay haha, cos it is not tt busy at ion where 9 pm still got customers queuing outside. it was more slack there and quite fun la with the kitchen crew. so i am quite contented..........sch at rmit was quite slack and nice....i only need to attend lec for 3 days in a week to me it is like a normal part time uni than full time lol......and one good new is tt for my individual assign for ob i got a distinction. i am very happy and proud of it...but at the same time doubting the quality of the uni standard as i know tt i not a very good report writer as i have nv get such a good mark in poly....now is in my study period as i gg to have my exam in 26 oct........very worry this time cos i hear tt i need to write essay for my examination. this is a bad news as in my jc 1 i did very badly for my essay econ......cos i have the tendancy to throw everything inside the essay regardless of relevance. one more thing is tt i a bit regret tt i made a birthday wish on having a bf this year cos now is gg to oct and i still don have one.......hope tt everyone will forget over it hahahaha.......and i still worry over my mum due to her childish act something....imaging a grown up child worry over the emotion state of her mum....haiz.......

Dear Aunt

Thursday, January 29, 2009

3:55 AM

My Aunt passed away on the Chinese New Year morning. We received the news in the night, thus my mom flew to Indonesia in the early morning of next day(ling cheng of chu er). That night i did not sleep, busy booking air ticket for my mom and went to ATM to withdraw and deposit money. This is so as the ticket counter need payment from the credit cards which mine is very limited due to my shopping spree recently.

i was quite sad and totally no mood to celebrate my New Year. Thus i did not go ban nian on chu er, firstly becos pl call to chase me away before i even went out as her house got alter and she being super mi xin. secondly of cos i feel very sad due to my aunt death. in the end, jo and pl went with me to orchard road to shop and i end up buying a polo tee.

My aunt treat me quite well, she was an old lady that love to travel, every time i saw her she always full of smile on her face, especially when she came to Singapore. Even she could not walk properly due to her legs condition, she still wan to travel and come to visit us. i rmb every time she come she always brought pyjamas to me. the pyjamas were always very big for me. But i always wear them on the eve of new year before i go to sleep. i was wearing the pyjamas before i gg to bed and found out the news that she had passed away. i was quite sad but things already happened so i could only send regard through my mom to her families.

Now what i could tell my aunt is that not to worry over your families as they are all married and with families. for uncle, i am sure that your daughters and son could take care over him. Go in peace, and went to heaven. i always know that you loved to travel, now you are free of obligations, u can pursued your dream now and be a carefree and happy spirits with gods, grand ma and pa and your 2 brothers.

Your niece,

Ping2

Happy New Year!!!

Sunday, January 25, 2009

6:06 AM

funny video

Thursday, January 08, 2009

7:40 AM

this is a video that my friend shows me.....really make up my day and have a good laugh through that stressful proj period.